"I, the LORD, have called you in righteousness; I will take hold of your hand. I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the people and a light for the Gentiles, to open eyes that are blind, to free captives from prison and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness. Isaiah 42: 6-7
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
This morning I prayed for release from what's been held back, whatever it may be. Everything that's bottled up inside -- whether emotions, gifts and talents, memories. I prayed for the detritus to be swept away, the chains to be broken, the seal to be removed, the treasures revealed, the pain abolished.
I also realized, during this prayer, that it's not all bad stuff that's been hidden. Some of it's good stuff. Wonderful stuff.
I was also reminded of what has been already released and revealed. These include talents that had been previously hidden (acting), suppressed (singing), and avoided (personal writing).
I've also made plans to rearrange furniture, and possibly redecorate my home. Is it time to downsize again? Maybe. That's always a possibility, and usually a necessity. Less is supposed to be more. And it would represent more release, not from emotions or memories, but from possessions. I admit, I am a bit of a packrat.
Then to the place the LORD your God will choose as a dwelling for his Name--there you are to bring everything I command you: your burnt offerings and sacrifices, your tithes and special gifts, and all the choice possessions you have vowed to the LORD. Deuteronomy 12: 11
I had bacon and peaches for breakfast, but didn't write down what I ate for lunch. I'm sure was nutritious, carbohydrate-free, and as tasty as I could make it. Dinner was roast beef with onions and cauliflower.
Su
Monday, April 25, 2011
Day 34 - Rose Colored Glasses
But may the righteous be glad and rejoice before God; may they be happy and joyful. Psalm 68: 3
Monday, April 11, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
I had my Monday appointment with Dr. Ford this morning, and have now officially crossed over into the second trimester. I have completed the first third of the 100 days.
There is still some leg cramping in the mornings, but my blood sugar is stabilizing. And my appetite has decreased. For the past week or so I've found I'm not nearly so hungry, so my body is adjusting to what it's taking in. I'm decreasing portion sizes now, and the pounds are starting to come off.
As of today, I've lost 11 pounds. In just four more days I will be through the 30-day purification diet, and can start adding foods slowly back into my menus. That is definitely something I'm looking forward to! I should learn more about that at my next appointment on Wednesday.
I can't have dried fruits, even if there are no additives. I found this surprising, until Dr. Ford explained that the sugar content is highly concentrated in dried fruits. And since I have sugar issues, I need to keep away from them.
I sure miss coffee in the mornings! It has nothing to do with the caffeine, I'm fine with decaf. But I love the smell and the taste. One of these days...another thing to happily work toward.
Dr. Ford had a new exercise for me to do, where I wear a pair of red-lensed aviator glasses. The red glass is supposed to help stimulate melatonin production, and slow down the overfiring midbrain. In other words, it's to help with relaxation. I'm still having problems in that area. I can follow directions on what to eat and not eat, what supplements to take and for how long. But ask me to relax? What does that even mean?
I also need to learn how to breathe.
Then he said to me, "Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe into these slain, that they may live.' " Ezekiel 37: 9
Deep breathing techniques are supposed to help me relax. Maybe I'll finally get it, maybe I'll finally be able to relax. But right now I'm trying too hard, stressing out over my unrelaxed state. The harder I try to relax, the tenser I become.
Some things just don't come that easily.
For breakfast, I had leftover sweet and sour pork. I ate lunch out with a friend, and ordered a rib eye steak smothered in grilled red onions, steamed veggies, and a side salad with olives and oil and vinegar dressing. Dinner was my super salad with chicken, bacon, red onions, avocado, peaches, greens and celery.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Day 33 - Emerging from the Tomb
Now a man named Lazarus was sick. He was from Bethany, the village of Mary and her sister Martha. This Mary, whose brother Lazarus now lay sick, was the same one who poured perfume on the Lord and wiped his feet with her hair. So the sisters sent word to Jesus, "Lord, the one you love is sick." When he heard this, Jesus said, "This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God's glory so that God's Son may be glorified through it." John 11: 1-4
Sunday, April 10, 2011
This was Day 25 of the 30-day diet, with only 5 more to go.
After a quick breakfast of leftovers from last night (minus the lettuce), I attended church, where the Gospel reading was the story of Lazarus being raised from the dead. This miracle was a taste of what was to come -- Jesus' own resurrection to follow. It was also a means to also raise people's expectations and awareness of this man who had come into their lives, of the many prophecies he fulfilled, the miracles he performed. But raising from the dead -- what could be more powerful than that?
I too am being raised from the dead. I too am being brought back to life. I too am being called from the tomb.
Jesus, once more deeply moved, came to the tomb. It was a cave with a stone laid across the entrance. "Take away the stone," he said. "But, Lord," said Martha, the sister of the dead man, "by this time there is a bad odor, for he has been there four days." Then Jesus said, "Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?" So they took away the stone. Then Jesus looked up and said, "Father, I thank you that you have heard me. I knew that you always hear me, but I said this for the benefit of the people standing here, that they may believe that you sent me." When he had said this, Jesus called in a loud voice, "Lazarus, come out!" The dead man came out, his hands and feet wrapped with strips of linen, and a cloth around his face. Jesus said to them, "Take off the grave clothes and let him go." John 11: 38-44
I have taken off the grave clothes. I have given up the sack cloth and ashes. I have shed the mourning garments -- spiritually, mentally, and even literally.
This morning I tried on my little black dress. I'd bought it a few months ago, and it was too snug to wear, so it was a dream dress, to be worn someday, whenever. And that someday is getting close! I was able to zip it up easily -- with no one's help. I stepped into my black patent leather stilletos and paraded in front of the mirror.
I LOOKED GOOD! I FELT EVEN BETTER! What a joy that was!
Thus encouraged and inspired, I tried on several other dresses -- all bought for that same future "someday." And they, too, now fit me.
So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. John 16: 22
For lunch, I fried a chicken breast, and fixed some green beans to go with it. Dinner was my take on sweet and sour pork - browned pork pieces simmered with onions, snow peas, peaches, apple cider vinegar, salt and pepper.
Su
Sunday, April 10, 2011
This was Day 25 of the 30-day diet, with only 5 more to go.
After a quick breakfast of leftovers from last night (minus the lettuce), I attended church, where the Gospel reading was the story of Lazarus being raised from the dead. This miracle was a taste of what was to come -- Jesus' own resurrection to follow. It was also a means to also raise people's expectations and awareness of this man who had come into their lives, of the many prophecies he fulfilled, the miracles he performed. But raising from the dead -- what could be more powerful than that?
I too am being raised from the dead. I too am being brought back to life. I too am being called from the tomb.
Jesus, once more deeply moved, came to the tomb. It was a cave with a stone laid across the entrance. "Take away the stone," he said. "But, Lord," said Martha, the sister of the dead man, "by this time there is a bad odor, for he has been there four days." Then Jesus said, "Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?" So they took away the stone. Then Jesus looked up and said, "Father, I thank you that you have heard me. I knew that you always hear me, but I said this for the benefit of the people standing here, that they may believe that you sent me." When he had said this, Jesus called in a loud voice, "Lazarus, come out!" The dead man came out, his hands and feet wrapped with strips of linen, and a cloth around his face. Jesus said to them, "Take off the grave clothes and let him go." John 11: 38-44
I have taken off the grave clothes. I have given up the sack cloth and ashes. I have shed the mourning garments -- spiritually, mentally, and even literally.
This morning I tried on my little black dress. I'd bought it a few months ago, and it was too snug to wear, so it was a dream dress, to be worn someday, whenever. And that someday is getting close! I was able to zip it up easily -- with no one's help. I stepped into my black patent leather stilletos and paraded in front of the mirror.
I LOOKED GOOD! I FELT EVEN BETTER! What a joy that was!
Thus encouraged and inspired, I tried on several other dresses -- all bought for that same future "someday." And they, too, now fit me.
So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. John 16: 22
For lunch, I fried a chicken breast, and fixed some green beans to go with it. Dinner was my take on sweet and sour pork - browned pork pieces simmered with onions, snow peas, peaches, apple cider vinegar, salt and pepper.
Su
Monday, April 18, 2011
Day 32 - Not Exactly as Planned
Saturday, April 9, 2011
It was a quiet Saturday, spent resting some, cleaning some more, and catching up a bit on my writing. I started with bacon and peach slices for breakfast, with a hamburger patty, grilled red onions, and green beans for lunch.
I tried to make the closest thing I could to a taco salad for dinner -- greens, ground beef, red onions, celery, avocado, salt and pepper, oil and vinegar. I cooked the onions and celery with the hamburger, which helped, but it was still a far cry from my intentions. But soon -- in just a week -- I can start adding foods back into my diet. One of these days I'll have that taco salad. Just not at this time.
May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. Psalm 20: 4
I also spent some time reflecting and praying about the things -- whatever they are -- that I've been holding inside. The hurts. The disappointments. The reactions and emotions. The numbness. Especially the numbness.
And I realized that it's not just these things I've been holding inside. There are other things to release, to let go of. To be freed of.
My eyes are ever on the LORD, for only he will release my feet from the snare. Psalm 25: 15
And so I organized a parade. I brought out as many aspects of myself that had been damaged in some way throughout the years past, and stood them, lifted them, one by one, before God for his merciful healing.
The frightened child who feared abandonment. The once gregarious little girl who fell silent for a year's time. The shy one, the misunderstood one, the overlooked and ignored one. The insulted, rejected and lonely one.
All me, at one age, one time or another. All waiting to be healed. All waiting to be forgiven. All waiting -- as a breath too long held -- to be released.
The goat will carry on itself all their sins to a solitary place; and the man shall release it in the desert. Leviticus 16: 22
It was a quiet Saturday, spent resting some, cleaning some more, and catching up a bit on my writing. I started with bacon and peach slices for breakfast, with a hamburger patty, grilled red onions, and green beans for lunch.
I tried to make the closest thing I could to a taco salad for dinner -- greens, ground beef, red onions, celery, avocado, salt and pepper, oil and vinegar. I cooked the onions and celery with the hamburger, which helped, but it was still a far cry from my intentions. But soon -- in just a week -- I can start adding foods back into my diet. One of these days I'll have that taco salad. Just not at this time.
May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. Psalm 20: 4
I also spent some time reflecting and praying about the things -- whatever they are -- that I've been holding inside. The hurts. The disappointments. The reactions and emotions. The numbness. Especially the numbness.
And I realized that it's not just these things I've been holding inside. There are other things to release, to let go of. To be freed of.
My eyes are ever on the LORD, for only he will release my feet from the snare. Psalm 25: 15
And so I organized a parade. I brought out as many aspects of myself that had been damaged in some way throughout the years past, and stood them, lifted them, one by one, before God for his merciful healing.
The frightened child who feared abandonment. The once gregarious little girl who fell silent for a year's time. The shy one, the misunderstood one, the overlooked and ignored one. The insulted, rejected and lonely one.
All me, at one age, one time or another. All waiting to be healed. All waiting to be forgiven. All waiting -- as a breath too long held -- to be released.
The goat will carry on itself all their sins to a solitary place; and the man shall release it in the desert. Leviticus 16: 22
Day 31 - I'm Down a Sack of Potatoes
Let God weigh me in honest scales and he will know that I am blameless. Job 31: 6
Friday, April 8, 2011
10 POUNDS OFF!
I know I mentioned this the other day, but it's exciting. Because that equates to a sack of potatoes! Or two large bags of flour! Or ten boxes of butter!
Try putting 10 pounds of something -- anything -- in your purse, your backpack, your briefcase, even your pockets if they're big enough. Then try carrying that around with you all day long. Try sitting with that on your lap, or next to your side in the chair, or tucked between yourself and the cushion. You can't put it down, you can't forget it's there.
But now I can!
That's how much less of a strain there is now on my system. That's how much less is stuffed into my clothes. That's how much less I have to try to cover up, camouflage, ignore and wish it would just go away.
Because now it's gone!
I know that the focus of this 100-Day Journey is NOT about weight loss. It's about getting healthy. But by getting healthy, I am losing weight. Easily. Naturally. Not with special meal replacement shakes, not with chemicals and pills that try to trick my system and suppress my appetite. But with food -- real food -- right food.
Men ate the bread of angels; he sent them all the food they could eat. Psalm 78: 25
Today was another Fishy Friday, with a stir-fried breakfast of salmon, celery, green beans and snow peas. Lunch was tilapia with lime juice, served with broccoli. And a salad of tuna, peaches, celery, red onion, cucumber, and red wine vinegar with olive oil, served over lettuce greens, was the dinner menu.
I'm still experiencing some fatigue during the day, but it's not as frequent. I hold steady and it passes, without the need for a nap. Perhaps I'm still recovering from the strain of the play last week.
But I am feeling so much better overall! And I have noticed that my body shape is changing. The pounds are coming off slowly, but I felt and looked smaller, especially in the face and through the middle. I felt up to celebrating by going out for a ladies' night with a friend, first dancing, then trying our hand at the casino. We broke even -- no losses -- except for those 10 pounds!
It was a great night.
It is good to praise the LORD and make music to your name, O Most High, to proclaim your love in the morning and your faithfulness at night, to the music of the ten-stringed lyre and the melody of the harp. For you make me glad by your deeds, O LORD; I sing for joy at the works of your hands. How great are your works, O LORD, how profound your thoughts! Psalm 92: 1-5
Friday, April 8, 2011
10 POUNDS OFF!
I know I mentioned this the other day, but it's exciting. Because that equates to a sack of potatoes! Or two large bags of flour! Or ten boxes of butter!
Try putting 10 pounds of something -- anything -- in your purse, your backpack, your briefcase, even your pockets if they're big enough. Then try carrying that around with you all day long. Try sitting with that on your lap, or next to your side in the chair, or tucked between yourself and the cushion. You can't put it down, you can't forget it's there.
But now I can!
That's how much less of a strain there is now on my system. That's how much less is stuffed into my clothes. That's how much less I have to try to cover up, camouflage, ignore and wish it would just go away.
Because now it's gone!
I know that the focus of this 100-Day Journey is NOT about weight loss. It's about getting healthy. But by getting healthy, I am losing weight. Easily. Naturally. Not with special meal replacement shakes, not with chemicals and pills that try to trick my system and suppress my appetite. But with food -- real food -- right food.
Men ate the bread of angels; he sent them all the food they could eat. Psalm 78: 25
Today was another Fishy Friday, with a stir-fried breakfast of salmon, celery, green beans and snow peas. Lunch was tilapia with lime juice, served with broccoli. And a salad of tuna, peaches, celery, red onion, cucumber, and red wine vinegar with olive oil, served over lettuce greens, was the dinner menu.
I'm still experiencing some fatigue during the day, but it's not as frequent. I hold steady and it passes, without the need for a nap. Perhaps I'm still recovering from the strain of the play last week.
But I am feeling so much better overall! And I have noticed that my body shape is changing. The pounds are coming off slowly, but I felt and looked smaller, especially in the face and through the middle. I felt up to celebrating by going out for a ladies' night with a friend, first dancing, then trying our hand at the casino. We broke even -- no losses -- except for those 10 pounds!
It was a great night.
It is good to praise the LORD and make music to your name, O Most High, to proclaim your love in the morning and your faithfulness at night, to the music of the ten-stringed lyre and the melody of the harp. For you make me glad by your deeds, O LORD; I sing for joy at the works of your hands. How great are your works, O LORD, how profound your thoughts! Psalm 92: 1-5
Day 30 - Let Them Eat Cake, Because I Can't
They devoted themselves to the apostles' teaching and to the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. Acts 2: 42
Thursday, April 7, 2011
After a quick cleaning of the house, and an even quicker breakfast of bacon and peaches, I headed to my Bible study, which was followed by a fellowship lunch in my home. It was a beautiful day, and I was looking forward to breaking bread with these prayerful women.
We were to each bring our own lunch, and my task -- besides opening my home -- was to provide beverages and dessert.
So I put the cat on the back porch where she wouldn't bother our meeting, poured cold tea into the pitcher, set out glasses, plates and silverware, and pulled my pre-made salad from the fridge.
Then I cut the cakes. Yep, that's right. CAKES. One lemon, one chocolate. Triple layers. With filling and frosting and sprinkles. I cut them into pretty, sweet-smelling, wedges of delicious-looking pastries. And I didn't even lick my fingers. I didn't lick the knife. I didn't touch a crumb.
Elijah said to her, "Don't be afraid. Go home and do as you have said. But first make a small cake of bread for me from what you have and bring it to me, and then make something for yourself and your son. For this is what the LORD, the God of Israel, says: 'The jar of flour will not be used up and the jug of oil will not run dry until the day the LORD gives rain on the land.' " She went away and did as Elijah had told her. So there was food every day for Elijah and for the woman and her family. For the jar of flour was not used up and the jug of oil did not run dry, in keeping with the word of the LORD spoken by Elijah. 1 Kings 17: 13-16
It was a delightful meal, full of laughter and hospitality, shared faith and feminity. My joy was found in serving, not eating, the cake. I sent the leftover tea home with one of the women and took the remaining cake to the kids to eat after school.
Dinner tonight was leftover roast and vegetables. Simple fare, but a fitting end to such a blessed day. Thank you, God, for fellowship, friendship, faith and faithfulness. Thank you, God, for you.
You will eat the fruit of your labor; blessings and prosperity will be yours. Psalm 128: 2
Thursday, April 7, 2011
After a quick cleaning of the house, and an even quicker breakfast of bacon and peaches, I headed to my Bible study, which was followed by a fellowship lunch in my home. It was a beautiful day, and I was looking forward to breaking bread with these prayerful women.
We were to each bring our own lunch, and my task -- besides opening my home -- was to provide beverages and dessert.
So I put the cat on the back porch where she wouldn't bother our meeting, poured cold tea into the pitcher, set out glasses, plates and silverware, and pulled my pre-made salad from the fridge.
Then I cut the cakes. Yep, that's right. CAKES. One lemon, one chocolate. Triple layers. With filling and frosting and sprinkles. I cut them into pretty, sweet-smelling, wedges of delicious-looking pastries. And I didn't even lick my fingers. I didn't lick the knife. I didn't touch a crumb.
Elijah said to her, "Don't be afraid. Go home and do as you have said. But first make a small cake of bread for me from what you have and bring it to me, and then make something for yourself and your son. For this is what the LORD, the God of Israel, says: 'The jar of flour will not be used up and the jug of oil will not run dry until the day the LORD gives rain on the land.' " She went away and did as Elijah had told her. So there was food every day for Elijah and for the woman and her family. For the jar of flour was not used up and the jug of oil did not run dry, in keeping with the word of the LORD spoken by Elijah. 1 Kings 17: 13-16
It was a delightful meal, full of laughter and hospitality, shared faith and feminity. My joy was found in serving, not eating, the cake. I sent the leftover tea home with one of the women and took the remaining cake to the kids to eat after school.
Dinner tonight was leftover roast and vegetables. Simple fare, but a fitting end to such a blessed day. Thank you, God, for fellowship, friendship, faith and faithfulness. Thank you, God, for you.
You will eat the fruit of your labor; blessings and prosperity will be yours. Psalm 128: 2
Day 29 - Blind Obedience
In everything that he undertook in the service of God's temple and in obedience to the law and the commands, he sought his God and worked wholeheartedly. And so he prospered. 2 Chronicles 31: 21
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
I have lost 10 pounds now. It doesn't really show, but I can feel a difference in the way my clothes are fitting. Or should I say they way they are fitting again, as they were getting tighter and tighter.
I met with Dr. Ford this morning, and he asked if I had any problems with the diet so far, or any questions. I told him that I was still in the "blind obedience" mode, just following doctor's orders and carrying on, day by day.
When we discussed the supplements I've been taken, it seems that I am in the minority on the taste of one of them. The vast majority in fact. Once again, I am an oddity, liking something that others find distasteful. But maybe it's because my tastebuds are so starved for something sweet that they rejoice in the slight sweetness of the drink. Maybe I'm so deprived of the flavor of coffee that I see this is an acceptable substitute -- for the time being, anyway. Whatever. It's not too bad, and I'm really not all that weird. I think.
I had a great meeting over lunch with a new friend today. We'd met online, but never in person, and I had done some editorial work for a client of hers. So this was an occasion to get to know each other personally, not just professionally. We chose to meet at Panera Bread, where I was sure to be able to find a suitable salad for my meal. Not quite. So many delicious looking salads, so many tantalizing ingredients. But few that I could eat at this time.
However, restaurants are created to serve food, and with this in mind, the helpful staff assisted in concocting something that pleased my palate, and pleased my doctor -- a large bowl of mixed greens, red onions, bacon pieces, and grilled chicken breast. Olive oil for the dressing was no problem, but there was NO VINEGAR! So I substituted lemon juice, squeezed from wedges set out at the beverage station, and dug in.
I had already started dinner before I left the house, tucking a roast into my trusty crock pot along with chunks of red onion and fresh cauliflower. It was all fork tender when mealtime came back around, and tasted as great as it smelled. There was enough for several meals to come.
I am encouraged by how I feel, how I have lost weight, and how I can find something to eat when dining out, although it might take a little maneuvering. My dietary requirements may be limiting in ingredients, but they're not ridiculous demands on myself or on a restaurant. This is more of a simplified regimen, providing pure, clean, necessary fuel for my healing body.
I may be following the doctor in "blind obedience" at this stage of the program, but wherever and whenever I eat, I find that there is plenty of food. I am not hungry. I am not thirsty. I am provided for.
They will neither hunger nor thirst, nor will the desert heat or the sun beat upon them. He who has compassion on them will guide them and lead them beside springs of water. Isaiah 49: 10
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
I have lost 10 pounds now. It doesn't really show, but I can feel a difference in the way my clothes are fitting. Or should I say they way they are fitting again, as they were getting tighter and tighter.
I met with Dr. Ford this morning, and he asked if I had any problems with the diet so far, or any questions. I told him that I was still in the "blind obedience" mode, just following doctor's orders and carrying on, day by day.
When we discussed the supplements I've been taken, it seems that I am in the minority on the taste of one of them. The vast majority in fact. Once again, I am an oddity, liking something that others find distasteful. But maybe it's because my tastebuds are so starved for something sweet that they rejoice in the slight sweetness of the drink. Maybe I'm so deprived of the flavor of coffee that I see this is an acceptable substitute -- for the time being, anyway. Whatever. It's not too bad, and I'm really not all that weird. I think.
I had a great meeting over lunch with a new friend today. We'd met online, but never in person, and I had done some editorial work for a client of hers. So this was an occasion to get to know each other personally, not just professionally. We chose to meet at Panera Bread, where I was sure to be able to find a suitable salad for my meal. Not quite. So many delicious looking salads, so many tantalizing ingredients. But few that I could eat at this time.
However, restaurants are created to serve food, and with this in mind, the helpful staff assisted in concocting something that pleased my palate, and pleased my doctor -- a large bowl of mixed greens, red onions, bacon pieces, and grilled chicken breast. Olive oil for the dressing was no problem, but there was NO VINEGAR! So I substituted lemon juice, squeezed from wedges set out at the beverage station, and dug in.
I had already started dinner before I left the house, tucking a roast into my trusty crock pot along with chunks of red onion and fresh cauliflower. It was all fork tender when mealtime came back around, and tasted as great as it smelled. There was enough for several meals to come.
I am encouraged by how I feel, how I have lost weight, and how I can find something to eat when dining out, although it might take a little maneuvering. My dietary requirements may be limiting in ingredients, but they're not ridiculous demands on myself or on a restaurant. This is more of a simplified regimen, providing pure, clean, necessary fuel for my healing body.
I may be following the doctor in "blind obedience" at this stage of the program, but wherever and whenever I eat, I find that there is plenty of food. I am not hungry. I am not thirsty. I am provided for.
They will neither hunger nor thirst, nor will the desert heat or the sun beat upon them. He who has compassion on them will guide them and lead them beside springs of water. Isaiah 49: 10
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Day 28 - Like Silver Refined
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Remember what I've recently shared about emotions and stress? Well, this is a day that could have been a very emotional and stressful day. It's a day that has been such for the past few years, but this one passed calmly. It was my 25th wedding anniversary. The silver one. Or it would have been.
But that is the past, and this is the present, the life I am working to reclaim, regain, resurrect. I am claiming the scripture of refinement, not only because of the mention of silver -- as relating to my silver anniversary -- but to the promise of purification that comes from refinement.
All impurities will be burned away. Only the element itself shall remain in liquid form, to take the shape of whatever mold it is put into. That is how I am becoming the new me, through this refinement, this difficult challenge which follows difficult times.
I have walked through fire, I have found shelter in raging storms. I have spent time in the wasteland, and exiled from the life I once knew. I have neared the border to a new life, and am ready to be molded and shaped into a new creature, inside and out.
I am opening myself to this process, this refinement, this burning away of what doesn't belong in my life, in my lifestyle, in my body. I am opening myself to the new physical shape I will be given, that of the woman God created me to be, and burning away the bad choices, mistakes and ill health I have made through my life which led to the present form I find myself trapped within.
All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags; we all shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins sweep us away.No one calls on your name or strives to lay hold of you; for you have hidden your face from us and made us waste away because of our sins.Yet, O LORD, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand. Isaiah 64: 6-8
Consequently, this was also the 20th day of the 30-day cleansing diet. I am now officially 2/3 through it.
Today's menu: 3 slices crisp bacon and a fresh plum for breakfast. Leftover stir-fried beef, broccoli and cauliflower, with brussels sprouts, for lunch. A large "super salad" for dinner.
Su
Remember what I've recently shared about emotions and stress? Well, this is a day that could have been a very emotional and stressful day. It's a day that has been such for the past few years, but this one passed calmly. It was my 25th wedding anniversary. The silver one. Or it would have been.
This third I will bring into the fire; I will refine them like silver and test them like gold. They will call on my name and I will answer them; I will say, 'They are my people,' and they will say, 'The LORD is our God.' " Zechariah 13:9
But that is the past, and this is the present, the life I am working to reclaim, regain, resurrect. I am claiming the scripture of refinement, not only because of the mention of silver -- as relating to my silver anniversary -- but to the promise of purification that comes from refinement.
All impurities will be burned away. Only the element itself shall remain in liquid form, to take the shape of whatever mold it is put into. That is how I am becoming the new me, through this refinement, this difficult challenge which follows difficult times.
I have walked through fire, I have found shelter in raging storms. I have spent time in the wasteland, and exiled from the life I once knew. I have neared the border to a new life, and am ready to be molded and shaped into a new creature, inside and out.
I am opening myself to this process, this refinement, this burning away of what doesn't belong in my life, in my lifestyle, in my body. I am opening myself to the new physical shape I will be given, that of the woman God created me to be, and burning away the bad choices, mistakes and ill health I have made through my life which led to the present form I find myself trapped within.
All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags; we all shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins sweep us away.No one calls on your name or strives to lay hold of you; for you have hidden your face from us and made us waste away because of our sins.Yet, O LORD, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand. Isaiah 64: 6-8
Consequently, this was also the 20th day of the 30-day cleansing diet. I am now officially 2/3 through it.
Today's menu: 3 slices crisp bacon and a fresh plum for breakfast. Leftover stir-fried beef, broccoli and cauliflower, with brussels sprouts, for lunch. A large "super salad" for dinner.
Su
Day 27 - At Long Last...Results!
Monday, April 4, 2011
It was good to rest yesterday, and important to try to recoup some of my energy. I was so drained, and needed the restoration which comes from sleep -- lots and lots of sleep.
Now I was facing a new week, a new meeting with Dr. Ford, and a new perspective on my health. Because now I would have something I've been waiting a long time for -- answers!
I started the morning with the supplements Dr. Ford had added to help repair my digestive system. One beverage tasted a little like slightly-sweetened coffee, the other was more like a bland protein shake that I can add frozen fruit to for a smoothie, plus probiotic tablets to increase my stomach acid. After a quick breakfast of leftovers, I headed for Dr. Ford's office, gearing myself for the information he had to share, and the plan he had devised to help me reclaim my health and well being.
OK, here's the info, in a nutshell. My bad cholesterol is high, my good cholesterol is low. I suffer from anemia -- not because I don't have enough iron, but because my system is not processing it correctly. I have muscular atrophy, but am not yet at a point where I can exercise. And there are severe blood sugar issues.
There are several things that we thought might be problematic, but didn't turn out to be. And nothing is pathological. The best news? Everything can be treated and ultimately healed, with the process we are already on.
Dr. Ford expressed concern for my stress level, although he understood that I had been under more strain than usual with the play performances last week. Still, he began me on a biorhythm exercise, to teach me how to retrain my breathing, which will help release stress. It was a simple exercise -- just breathe deeply in and deeply out, concentrating on the air coming and going from my heart and lungs, while smiling and thinking happy thoughts.
What are happy thoughts? I tried happy memories, but they were bittersweet at best. I tried imagining myself in a favorite place, but that didn't work either. The exercise which was supposed to be stress-releasing instead brought additional stress, and brought the tears flowing.
I flunked it this time. It seems I'm a stressed-out emotional trainwreck. But we're going to try again on Wednesday, and from now on I'll be meeting with Dr. Ford twice a week. I'm also supposed to start a private journal, more in-depth than this blog, and try to address my emotions and stressors through the written word.
For some reason, that frightened me.
But now, this is what the LORD says-- he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. Isaiah 43: 1
I had lunch out with a friend -- sirloin steak, green beans with onion and bacon, and a side salad. After an hour-long walk and my working shift, another friend and I enjoyed a delicious dinner of baked chicken breast, brussels sprouts sauteed with bacon, and broccoli and cauliflower blend.
It was an informative morning which held more positive than negative answers -- at least to my perspective -- followed by breaking bread and spending time with supportive, caring friends. Thank you, Lord, for the blessings of a great day!
Su
It was good to rest yesterday, and important to try to recoup some of my energy. I was so drained, and needed the restoration which comes from sleep -- lots and lots of sleep.
Now I was facing a new week, a new meeting with Dr. Ford, and a new perspective on my health. Because now I would have something I've been waiting a long time for -- answers!
I started the morning with the supplements Dr. Ford had added to help repair my digestive system. One beverage tasted a little like slightly-sweetened coffee, the other was more like a bland protein shake that I can add frozen fruit to for a smoothie, plus probiotic tablets to increase my stomach acid. After a quick breakfast of leftovers, I headed for Dr. Ford's office, gearing myself for the information he had to share, and the plan he had devised to help me reclaim my health and well being.
Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health and that all may go well with you, even as your soul is getting along well. 3 John 1:2
OK, here's the info, in a nutshell. My bad cholesterol is high, my good cholesterol is low. I suffer from anemia -- not because I don't have enough iron, but because my system is not processing it correctly. I have muscular atrophy, but am not yet at a point where I can exercise. And there are severe blood sugar issues.
There are several things that we thought might be problematic, but didn't turn out to be. And nothing is pathological. The best news? Everything can be treated and ultimately healed, with the process we are already on.
Dr. Ford expressed concern for my stress level, although he understood that I had been under more strain than usual with the play performances last week. Still, he began me on a biorhythm exercise, to teach me how to retrain my breathing, which will help release stress. It was a simple exercise -- just breathe deeply in and deeply out, concentrating on the air coming and going from my heart and lungs, while smiling and thinking happy thoughts.
What are happy thoughts? I tried happy memories, but they were bittersweet at best. I tried imagining myself in a favorite place, but that didn't work either. The exercise which was supposed to be stress-releasing instead brought additional stress, and brought the tears flowing.
I flunked it this time. It seems I'm a stressed-out emotional trainwreck. But we're going to try again on Wednesday, and from now on I'll be meeting with Dr. Ford twice a week. I'm also supposed to start a private journal, more in-depth than this blog, and try to address my emotions and stressors through the written word.
For some reason, that frightened me.
But now, this is what the LORD says-- he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. Isaiah 43: 1
I had lunch out with a friend -- sirloin steak, green beans with onion and bacon, and a side salad. After an hour-long walk and my working shift, another friend and I enjoyed a delicious dinner of baked chicken breast, brussels sprouts sauteed with bacon, and broccoli and cauliflower blend.
It was an informative morning which held more positive than negative answers -- at least to my perspective -- followed by breaking bread and spending time with supportive, caring friends. Thank you, Lord, for the blessings of a great day!
Su
Day 26 - Sleepy Sunday
" 'There are six days when you may work, but the seventh day is a Sabbath of rest, a day of sacred assembly. You are not to do any work; wherever you live, it is a Sabbath to the LORD. Leviticus 33: 3
Sunday, April 3, 2011
IT WAS SUNDAY -- I WAS READY TO REST!
But I had to do a few things, first, such as go to church and then have lunch out with family before my son and daughter-in-law went back home. So I ate a quick leftovers breakfast before church, and when at the restaurant, I ordered a ham steak and a side salad. My son donated a slice of crisp bacon to add to my salad, which I further enhanced with chopping up the ham into bite-size pieces.
When we got back home, the stress and strain of the past week took its toll, and I settled in for a long afternoon nap. That was basically my day -- intermittent naps, a bit of TV and reading, more naps, finally rousing for a dinner of steak with grilled onions and broccoli. I was in bed by 10 p.m.
So I devoted today, my "sleepy Sunday," to resting my body, relaxing my mind. Extreme stress is hard on a person, not just mentally but physically. And physiologically. That's been part of my problem, living with anxiety for the past several years, mostly the previous four.
How is this stress affecting me? I will find out tomorrow, when Dr. Ford finally shares the results of the blood tests, and puts his finger on what's wrong with me.
Here I am, doing everything I can to allow this physical healing. I have a good spiritual grounding, and my mental condition has been restored from depression. So what have I missed?
It struck me last week, after I met with Jerry Myers, a life coach, that my emotional healing has been overlooked. Totally kept out of the equation. I was so focused on mind-body-spirit, that I missed the emotional aspect of my healing.
I know that I hold a lot of feelings inside. I swallow the pain, I choke back the anger, I stuff down the bad feelings, to the point I am even numb to the positive emotions -- joy and happiness. I don't mean that I'm totally unfeeling, but there is a shallowness, a depth that I don't dig into.
Do I know why? No. Does it matter if it began in childhood, adolescence or as an adult? Probably not. Do I need to figure out any particular trigger? I don't know the answer to that. But I do know that I need to release these emotions, and express them in a positive manner that is helpful, not hurtful. I need to address any fears I am repressing, and express any gifts or talents I am suppressing. And since I obviously don't do this very well on my own, I need to find a way to learn this skill.
This is some food for thought. I have only now been able to really process the emotional roller coaster ride that I found myself on, 10 days after the session with Jerry. I'll share more of that at a later date.
Right now I'll talk to God about it. I'll seek his guidance in the emotional realm. He knows me, and what he wants for me. He has it all in the palm of his hand. And he has a mighty big and powerful hand. And he is the ultimate healer, the wonderful counselor.
For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. Isaiah 9:6
Sunday, April 3, 2011
IT WAS SUNDAY -- I WAS READY TO REST!
But I had to do a few things, first, such as go to church and then have lunch out with family before my son and daughter-in-law went back home. So I ate a quick leftovers breakfast before church, and when at the restaurant, I ordered a ham steak and a side salad. My son donated a slice of crisp bacon to add to my salad, which I further enhanced with chopping up the ham into bite-size pieces.
When we got back home, the stress and strain of the past week took its toll, and I settled in for a long afternoon nap. That was basically my day -- intermittent naps, a bit of TV and reading, more naps, finally rousing for a dinner of steak with grilled onions and broccoli. I was in bed by 10 p.m.
So I devoted today, my "sleepy Sunday," to resting my body, relaxing my mind. Extreme stress is hard on a person, not just mentally but physically. And physiologically. That's been part of my problem, living with anxiety for the past several years, mostly the previous four.
How is this stress affecting me? I will find out tomorrow, when Dr. Ford finally shares the results of the blood tests, and puts his finger on what's wrong with me.
Here I am, doing everything I can to allow this physical healing. I have a good spiritual grounding, and my mental condition has been restored from depression. So what have I missed?
It struck me last week, after I met with Jerry Myers, a life coach, that my emotional healing has been overlooked. Totally kept out of the equation. I was so focused on mind-body-spirit, that I missed the emotional aspect of my healing.
I know that I hold a lot of feelings inside. I swallow the pain, I choke back the anger, I stuff down the bad feelings, to the point I am even numb to the positive emotions -- joy and happiness. I don't mean that I'm totally unfeeling, but there is a shallowness, a depth that I don't dig into.
Do I know why? No. Does it matter if it began in childhood, adolescence or as an adult? Probably not. Do I need to figure out any particular trigger? I don't know the answer to that. But I do know that I need to release these emotions, and express them in a positive manner that is helpful, not hurtful. I need to address any fears I am repressing, and express any gifts or talents I am suppressing. And since I obviously don't do this very well on my own, I need to find a way to learn this skill.
This is some food for thought. I have only now been able to really process the emotional roller coaster ride that I found myself on, 10 days after the session with Jerry. I'll share more of that at a later date.
Right now I'll talk to God about it. I'll seek his guidance in the emotional realm. He knows me, and what he wants for me. He has it all in the palm of his hand. And he has a mighty big and powerful hand. And he is the ultimate healer, the wonderful counselor.
For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. Isaiah 9:6
Monday, April 11, 2011
Day 25 - In Many Ways, a Special Day
He who regards one day as special, does so to the Lord. He who eats meat, eats to the Lord, for he gives thanks to God; and he who abstains, does so to the Lord and gives thanks to God. Romans 14: 6
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Saturday, April 2, 2011
This was a noteworthy day on many levels. First, I was now a quarter of the way through my journey of 100 days. Second, I'd just started the second half of the healing diet. Third, tonight was the final performance of the play. And fourth, my son and daughter-in-law came to town to see me perform!
My menu wasn't so special, though -- the simple fare I'd been consuming all week just to save time and get through the super-busy days and super-busy nights. Bacon and sliced peaches for breakfast; green beans with bacon and red onion for lunch; and a hamburger patty with peach slices for dinner, quickly eaten during intermission.
The play was sold out tonight -- and last night as well! Additional seats had to be set up to accomodate the overflow. Excitement and adrenaline were rampant, and fueled our performances in a good way. This experience has been exhilarating, and exhausting. After a quick stop at the cast party, I headed for home, and couldn't help feeling saddened and let down, in spite of the success, in spite of the plans and promises for next year's production.
Three months of rehearsals, three nights of performance, and now it was over. I started to cry. They were tears of release and tears of relief. They were cleansing tears.
When I finally unwound enough to go to bed, it was after midnight, and that's much later than I'm used to. I was so very, very tired. Drained. And I was needful of long, deep, restful, restorative sleep!
The LORD replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." Exodus 33: 14
Day 24 - April Fool's Day
The fool says in his heart, "There is no God." They are corrupt, and their ways are vile; there is no one who does good. Psalm 53: 1
Friday, April 1, 2011
Happy April Fool's Day!
Don't worry, I'm not fooling around with this blog. It's too important and personal to me. Instead, today I want to balance out the day and focus on some WISDOM, which is the opposite of foolishness.
God gave Solomon wisdom and very great insight, and a breadth of understanding as measureless as the sand on the seashore. 1 Kings 4:29
1. It is wise for me to seek a healthy lifestyle before seeking to lose excess weight. Otherwise I am only treating a symptom, not the underlying problem -- a messed up metabolism.
2. It is wise for me to brave the blood tests and document what's going on inside. Otherwise we don't know what we're dealing with, and how to best restore my health.
3. It is wise for me to have a doctor's guidance in this situation. Otherwise I am playing further "diet roulette," and likely adding to the problems even more.
4. It is wise for me to trust God's healing hand. Otherwise I am relying on man, and God is the great physician who calls doctors to be healers for him.
5. It is wise for me to keep on track with this plan, no matter the difficulties. Otherwise I will not learn how to keep these changes I am making.
6. It is wise for me to seek God's guidance, peace and assurance. Otherwise I am facing temptations that I don't need to subject myself to.
7. It is wise for me to make this story public and be willing to share it with others. Otherwise few people will know what I've gone through, what has been accomplished.
8. It is wise for me to be thankful to God for this opportunity for healing. Otherwise he will not get the credit he deserves.
So he replied to the messengers, "Go back and report to John what you have seen and heard: The blind receive sight, the lame walk, those who have leprosy are cured, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, and the good news is preached to the poor." Luke 7: 22
Friday, April 1, 2011
Happy April Fool's Day!
Don't worry, I'm not fooling around with this blog. It's too important and personal to me. Instead, today I want to balance out the day and focus on some WISDOM, which is the opposite of foolishness.
God gave Solomon wisdom and very great insight, and a breadth of understanding as measureless as the sand on the seashore. 1 Kings 4:29
1. It is wise for me to seek a healthy lifestyle before seeking to lose excess weight. Otherwise I am only treating a symptom, not the underlying problem -- a messed up metabolism.
2. It is wise for me to brave the blood tests and document what's going on inside. Otherwise we don't know what we're dealing with, and how to best restore my health.
3. It is wise for me to have a doctor's guidance in this situation. Otherwise I am playing further "diet roulette," and likely adding to the problems even more.
4. It is wise for me to trust God's healing hand. Otherwise I am relying on man, and God is the great physician who calls doctors to be healers for him.
5. It is wise for me to keep on track with this plan, no matter the difficulties. Otherwise I will not learn how to keep these changes I am making.
6. It is wise for me to seek God's guidance, peace and assurance. Otherwise I am facing temptations that I don't need to subject myself to.
7. It is wise for me to make this story public and be willing to share it with others. Otherwise few people will know what I've gone through, what has been accomplished.
8. It is wise for me to be thankful to God for this opportunity for healing. Otherwise he will not get the credit he deserves.
So he replied to the messengers, "Go back and report to John what you have seen and heard: The blind receive sight, the lame walk, those who have leprosy are cured, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, and the good news is preached to the poor." Luke 7: 22
Day 23 - A Busy Day and a Great Opening Night
I have seen the burden God has laid on men. He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil--this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him. Ecclesiastes 3: 10-14
Thursday, March 31, 2011
After a quick breakfast of bacon strips and apricots, I started my morning with prayer and Bible study, then stopped by Dr. Ford's office to pick up the supplements he had ordered for me. These are to help my digestive system heal, and I am supposed to add these in to all the other things I'm eating. I'm already so busy with shopping for food, cooking and preparing food, eating food, remembering snacks, and getting enough liquids, that I don't have time to be hungry.
And now we're adding supplements -- one for when I get up in the morning and right before bedtime, one mixed as a liquid to take twice daily, and one is a protein shake for once-daily consumption, usually as one of the between-meal snacks.
Phew!
I couldn't deal with the stress of that right now. I've decided to wait until next week, when the play is all over and done with and my life gets back on a more routine, normal keel. What's normal for me, anyway.
So, after a salad lunch, I took a "beauty afternoon" and treated myself to a new haircut before Opening Night. It helped me relax and be more confident in my upcoming performance.
The girl pleased him and won his favor. Immediately he provided her with her beauty treatments and special food. Esther 2: 9
The play went well. Most of the chairs were filled. My costume changes were made on time, I remembered most of my lines and my cues, and I sang the right notes. Friends came and cheered me on, waiting for me after I changed, and it was a great boost, a great Opening Night. Just two more performances to go. But I'm tired, and ready to go to bed.
I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety. Psalm 4: 8
Thursday, March 31, 2011
After a quick breakfast of bacon strips and apricots, I started my morning with prayer and Bible study, then stopped by Dr. Ford's office to pick up the supplements he had ordered for me. These are to help my digestive system heal, and I am supposed to add these in to all the other things I'm eating. I'm already so busy with shopping for food, cooking and preparing food, eating food, remembering snacks, and getting enough liquids, that I don't have time to be hungry.
And now we're adding supplements -- one for when I get up in the morning and right before bedtime, one mixed as a liquid to take twice daily, and one is a protein shake for once-daily consumption, usually as one of the between-meal snacks.
Phew!
I couldn't deal with the stress of that right now. I've decided to wait until next week, when the play is all over and done with and my life gets back on a more routine, normal keel. What's normal for me, anyway.
So, after a salad lunch, I took a "beauty afternoon" and treated myself to a new haircut before Opening Night. It helped me relax and be more confident in my upcoming performance.
The girl pleased him and won his favor. Immediately he provided her with her beauty treatments and special food. Esther 2: 9
The play went well. Most of the chairs were filled. My costume changes were made on time, I remembered most of my lines and my cues, and I sang the right notes. Friends came and cheered me on, waiting for me after I changed, and it was a great boost, a great Opening Night. Just two more performances to go. But I'm tired, and ready to go to bed.
I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety. Psalm 4: 8
Day 22 - Getting Through It
And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light. For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins. Colossians 1: 10-14
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
This is day 14 of Dr. Ford's metabolic cleansing diet, so tomorrow marks the halfway point. It hasn't been as difficult as I originally thought it would be to stick to, and I'm kind of proud of myself. My mantra is no longer "I think I can, I think I can, I think I can." Nope, now it's "I can do it, I can do it, I can do it!"
Remember those blood tests I took a couple weeks ago that I've been eagerly awaiting the outcome of? Dr. Ford has had the results for a while now, but was reviewing them before talking to me, so I get to wait another five days, when we'll go over them on Monday. He wants me to come in twice a week now. There are some supplements to add in, so I'll drop by tomorrow to pick them up. I know these are more things I need to help in my metabolic healing, but they sound nasty-tasting. I'll let you know.
I'm picking up steam, and had a very simple menu in preparation for a busy day. Breakfast was leftover stir-fry and salad, lunch was chicken-vegetable soup, and once again I took a large salad with me for dinner. Tonight was dress rehearsal -- the only dress rehearsal we got -- and we had several things go wrong. But that's what dress rehearsals are for -- to see what you need to fix, change, delete, add in, adjust, all at the last minute. I found out that my wardrobe changes were taking too long, so I had to rethink the costumes I had spent a lot of time coming up with.
It was a long night. And tomorrow will bring an even longer day.
Lord, help me through this week! It's not just the stresses of the diet. I've never acted in a play before, never sung on stage before. But you have led me to this, you have prepared me for this, and in that knowledge I find comfort and peace. Maybe it's peace before the storm, but peace enough for now.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
This is day 14 of Dr. Ford's metabolic cleansing diet, so tomorrow marks the halfway point. It hasn't been as difficult as I originally thought it would be to stick to, and I'm kind of proud of myself. My mantra is no longer "I think I can, I think I can, I think I can." Nope, now it's "I can do it, I can do it, I can do it!"
Remember those blood tests I took a couple weeks ago that I've been eagerly awaiting the outcome of? Dr. Ford has had the results for a while now, but was reviewing them before talking to me, so I get to wait another five days, when we'll go over them on Monday. He wants me to come in twice a week now. There are some supplements to add in, so I'll drop by tomorrow to pick them up. I know these are more things I need to help in my metabolic healing, but they sound nasty-tasting. I'll let you know.
A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones. Proverbs 17: 22
It was a long night. And tomorrow will bring an even longer day.
Lord, help me through this week! It's not just the stresses of the diet. I've never acted in a play before, never sung on stage before. But you have led me to this, you have prepared me for this, and in that knowledge I find comfort and peace. Maybe it's peace before the storm, but peace enough for now.
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life. Psalm 143: 8
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Day 21 - Getting Nervous
"Blessed is the man whom God corrects; so do not despise the discipline of the Almighty. For he wounds, but he also binds up; he injures, but his hands also heal. From six calamities he will rescue you; in seven no harm will befall you. In famine he will ransom you from death, and in battle from the stroke of the sword. You will be protected from the lash of the tongue, and need not fear when destruction comes. You will laugh at destruction and famine, and need not fear the beasts of the earth. For you will have a covenant with the stones of the field, and the wild animals will be at peace with you. Job 5: 17-23
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
For lunch I fixed a quick stir-fry of beef with celery, red onions and green beans, and prepared my super salad to take with me for dinner during play rehearsal. That will all be over on Saturday night, so Sunday I can truly claim as a day of rest.
I have to admit, with everything that's coming up, I'm getting a bit nervous.
Tomorrow morning I have my weekly appointment with Dr. Ford. He's checking over the diet diary I've been keeping, and possibly -- hopefully -- he'll go over the blood test results with me. Also adding to my anxiety, opening night is just two days away.
I finally had a chance to plan my costume changes -- and just in time. Tonight, before rehearsal, we had to be in costume for the promotional photos taken for displaying during the play.
Everything is coming down to the last minute. I'm having to set aside some of my business ventures for this week, as well as several of my household chores. I'm doing just what I need to do to get by, but thankfully it will be over soon. I am trusting that this energy will not fail me, and that I will be able to perform, to function, to copy, and to be as balanced as I possibly can, until the last curtain call.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Philippians 4: 6
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
For lunch I fixed a quick stir-fry of beef with celery, red onions and green beans, and prepared my super salad to take with me for dinner during play rehearsal. That will all be over on Saturday night, so Sunday I can truly claim as a day of rest.
I have to admit, with everything that's coming up, I'm getting a bit nervous.
Tomorrow morning I have my weekly appointment with Dr. Ford. He's checking over the diet diary I've been keeping, and possibly -- hopefully -- he'll go over the blood test results with me. Also adding to my anxiety, opening night is just two days away.
I finally had a chance to plan my costume changes -- and just in time. Tonight, before rehearsal, we had to be in costume for the promotional photos taken for displaying during the play.
Everything is coming down to the last minute. I'm having to set aside some of my business ventures for this week, as well as several of my household chores. I'm doing just what I need to do to get by, but thankfully it will be over soon. I am trusting that this energy will not fail me, and that I will be able to perform, to function, to copy, and to be as balanced as I possibly can, until the last curtain call.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Philippians 4: 6
Day 20 - Balancing Act
On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. "Teacher," he asked, "what must I do to inherit eternal life?" "What is written in the Law?" he replied. "How do you read it?" He answered: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' " "You have answered correctly," Jesus replied. "Do this and you will live." Luke 10: 25-28
Monday, March 28, 2011
Spring break is officially over and it's going to be a tough, exhausting week. I'm back at work, and this is the week of the play. So it's a good thing I've figured out some reliable and simply prepared meals.
That chicken-vegetable soup I made over the weekend will definitely make lunchtime easier, and my super salad is a great take-with-me dinner. In a large sealable bowl, I mix up chopped green onion, diced cucumber, crumbled bacon, chunks of cooked chicken an avocado, a handful of snow peas, some diced peaches and a few cherries, along with the dressing to act as a marinade. The lettuce and greens go in a separate bag so they won't get soggy before it's time to eat. And who knows when that'll be!
I'm needing to find a balance in my life. Right now that balance would be to keep an even keel with the many things going on, so that I'm not overwhelmed, not overstressed, not taken sick. I need to keep my work flowing, my energy up, and my mind intact.
Daily prayer and Bible study is a big help. I try to devote an hour or so each morning to reading God's Word, and relaxing in God's presence through prayer and meditation. If it's an especially busy day, and I have many things that need to be done, I ask God to guide my steps and remove all distractions so that what needs to be done will be done.
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you. Psalm 32: 8
And God does honor this request. I have to laugh, sometimes, though, as I sit down at the computer to write a story that's nearing its deadline, and think, "I'll just check my email first." HA! The internet server is down, and -- ta-da -- distraction removed. I immediately get to work.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11: 28-30
Monday, March 28, 2011
Spring break is officially over and it's going to be a tough, exhausting week. I'm back at work, and this is the week of the play. So it's a good thing I've figured out some reliable and simply prepared meals.
That chicken-vegetable soup I made over the weekend will definitely make lunchtime easier, and my super salad is a great take-with-me dinner. In a large sealable bowl, I mix up chopped green onion, diced cucumber, crumbled bacon, chunks of cooked chicken an avocado, a handful of snow peas, some diced peaches and a few cherries, along with the dressing to act as a marinade. The lettuce and greens go in a separate bag so they won't get soggy before it's time to eat. And who knows when that'll be!
I'm needing to find a balance in my life. Right now that balance would be to keep an even keel with the many things going on, so that I'm not overwhelmed, not overstressed, not taken sick. I need to keep my work flowing, my energy up, and my mind intact.
Daily prayer and Bible study is a big help. I try to devote an hour or so each morning to reading God's Word, and relaxing in God's presence through prayer and meditation. If it's an especially busy day, and I have many things that need to be done, I ask God to guide my steps and remove all distractions so that what needs to be done will be done.
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you. Psalm 32: 8
And God does honor this request. I have to laugh, sometimes, though, as I sit down at the computer to write a story that's nearing its deadline, and think, "I'll just check my email first." HA! The internet server is down, and -- ta-da -- distraction removed. I immediately get to work.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11: 28-30
Day 19 - Day of Rest? I Don't Think So!
For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy. Exodus 20: 11
Sunday, March 27
What a day!
For a Sunday, it was no "day of rest" for me and several others, as we devoted the afternoon and evening to play rehearsal. We usually don't rehearse on Sunday, but there was no way around it this time, with half the cast having been gone last week for spring break, and opening night just four days away. It's going to be a busy, busy week.
So I had a quick breakfast of three slices of crisp bacon and a fresh nectarine, and a bowl of chicken and vegetable soup for lunch. I set a pork chop out to thaw for dinner, and quickly grilled it with red onion when I finally got home. A simple tossed salad finished the meal.
Have I mentioned yet that part of this health journey is to learn how to handle stress? I'm supposed to be keeping my stress level down as low as possible, and still earn a living, take care of my house, PLUS shop for and prepare all this food. On a regular schedule. Three meals a day, with between-meal snacks. No convenience foods allowed.
Add in the upcoming play, and you have to know that STRESS is a definite part of this picture. Especially this week. But amazingly, I don't feel overwhelmed. Instead, I feel energized, and excited. Yes, I wake up at night with song lyrics and dialogue running through my mind, as my subconscious works overtime to try to ensure I won't make a fool of myself on stage. Yet I get enough sleep, and feel relatively rested.
I don't know if I'd be so energetic, though, if I hadn't been following this diet. I'm sure all the fresh fruits and vegetables, and the absence of starches and sugars, are making a difference in not only how I feel, but also how I cope.
Then come, let us go up to Bethel, where I will build an altar to God, who answered me in the day of my distress and who has been with me wherever I have gone." Genesis 35: 3
Sunday, March 27
What a day!
For a Sunday, it was no "day of rest" for me and several others, as we devoted the afternoon and evening to play rehearsal. We usually don't rehearse on Sunday, but there was no way around it this time, with half the cast having been gone last week for spring break, and opening night just four days away. It's going to be a busy, busy week.
So I had a quick breakfast of three slices of crisp bacon and a fresh nectarine, and a bowl of chicken and vegetable soup for lunch. I set a pork chop out to thaw for dinner, and quickly grilled it with red onion when I finally got home. A simple tossed salad finished the meal.
Have I mentioned yet that part of this health journey is to learn how to handle stress? I'm supposed to be keeping my stress level down as low as possible, and still earn a living, take care of my house, PLUS shop for and prepare all this food. On a regular schedule. Three meals a day, with between-meal snacks. No convenience foods allowed.
Add in the upcoming play, and you have to know that STRESS is a definite part of this picture. Especially this week. But amazingly, I don't feel overwhelmed. Instead, I feel energized, and excited. Yes, I wake up at night with song lyrics and dialogue running through my mind, as my subconscious works overtime to try to ensure I won't make a fool of myself on stage. Yet I get enough sleep, and feel relatively rested.
I don't know if I'd be so energetic, though, if I hadn't been following this diet. I'm sure all the fresh fruits and vegetables, and the absence of starches and sugars, are making a difference in not only how I feel, but also how I cope.
Then come, let us go up to Bethel, where I will build an altar to God, who answered me in the day of my distress and who has been with me wherever I have gone." Genesis 35: 3
Day 18 - So Far, So Good...Mostly Good, That Is
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Breakfast this morning was steak strips, left over from Friday's dinner, and peach slices. For lunch I tossed together a big salad, with greens, red onion, diced peaches, avocado, bacon pieces and chicken. My standard red wine vinegar and olive oil dressing topped it off.
I will send you rain in its season, and the ground will yield its crops and the trees of the field their fruit. Leviticus 26: 4
It's been a drizzly springtime day -- a good day for making chicken soup. Remember that chicken I cooked down a few days ago? Well, the broth made a fantastic base for a rich and hearty chicken-vegetable soup. Loaded with red onions, cabbage, and, of course, CHICKEN, it was simple but flavorful. And the huge potful will help me through the week ahead with warm-and-eat lunches or snacks.
So far I've lost seven pounds. Not too bad for being on this diet for just 10 days. 10 DAYS? Wow! That means I'm a third of the way through the 30-day cleansing and healing diet!
Let's see what changes -- good and bad -- I've noticed so far...
First, the good:
1. I've lost seven pounds. Woohoo!
2. I'm feeling more energetic, less lethargic.
3. I am satisfied with what I'm eating, and never hungry.
4. There are no cravings. Sure, certain foods sound good, but I'm really not tempted by them.
5. I'm sleeping well at night.
Now, the bad:
1. Leg cramps in the morning. The magnesium is helping, but there are still some cramping.
2. A few digestive issues.
3. I'm always needing to run to the store for more vegetables, fruits, and meat.
4. My grocery bill is higher than it's ever been.
All in all, the positive points outweigh the negative. That's good to know, and helpful to serve as motivation to continue. Another 20 days. That's less than three weeks. Then we'll move on to the next stage. Whatever that is. But it's sure to be something great, and great for me. I'm getting excited!
At the end of the ten days they looked healthier and better nourished than any of the young men who ate the royal food. Daniel 1: 15
Breakfast this morning was steak strips, left over from Friday's dinner, and peach slices. For lunch I tossed together a big salad, with greens, red onion, diced peaches, avocado, bacon pieces and chicken. My standard red wine vinegar and olive oil dressing topped it off.
I will send you rain in its season, and the ground will yield its crops and the trees of the field their fruit. Leviticus 26: 4
It's been a drizzly springtime day -- a good day for making chicken soup. Remember that chicken I cooked down a few days ago? Well, the broth made a fantastic base for a rich and hearty chicken-vegetable soup. Loaded with red onions, cabbage, and, of course, CHICKEN, it was simple but flavorful. And the huge potful will help me through the week ahead with warm-and-eat lunches or snacks.
So far I've lost seven pounds. Not too bad for being on this diet for just 10 days. 10 DAYS? Wow! That means I'm a third of the way through the 30-day cleansing and healing diet!
Let's see what changes -- good and bad -- I've noticed so far...
First, the good:
1. I've lost seven pounds. Woohoo!
2. I'm feeling more energetic, less lethargic.
3. I am satisfied with what I'm eating, and never hungry.
4. There are no cravings. Sure, certain foods sound good, but I'm really not tempted by them.
5. I'm sleeping well at night.
Now, the bad:
1. Leg cramps in the morning. The magnesium is helping, but there are still some cramping.
2. A few digestive issues.
3. I'm always needing to run to the store for more vegetables, fruits, and meat.
4. My grocery bill is higher than it's ever been.
All in all, the positive points outweigh the negative. That's good to know, and helpful to serve as motivation to continue. Another 20 days. That's less than three weeks. Then we'll move on to the next stage. Whatever that is. But it's sure to be something great, and great for me. I'm getting excited!
At the end of the ten days they looked healthier and better nourished than any of the young men who ate the royal food. Daniel 1: 15
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Day 17 - Brussels Sprouts Epiphany
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. "Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets." Matthew 7: 7-12
Friday, March 25, 2011
It's Friday and my house smells like fish! But my kitty cat sure appreciates it.
For breakfast, the day opened with tuna salad -- a drained can of tuna, chopped peaches, celery, red onion, half an avocado, red wine vinegar, salt and pepper. The cat got the juice from the tuna.
Lunch was hot salmon salad. Canned salmon, red onion, celery, vinegar, salt and pepper were heated in a skillet with a touch of olive oil. At the last minute I tossed in a handful of snow peas for a sweet crunch. The cat got the juice from the salmon.
I was treated to a special dinner, made by a friend, in my own kitchen. She sprinkled salmon filets with lemon juice and topped them with red onion, salt and pepper, then baked them in aluminum foil pockets. I tossed together a lettuce and cabbage slaw with red onions, chopped peaches, chopped plum, apple cider vinegar, salt and pepper. We fashioned a quick peach salsa with avocado, red onion, cucumber, peaches, and a splash of lemon juice.
And I bravely opened myself to a new experience -- steamed brussels sprouts.
Brussels sprouts and many other green foods were not part of my diet growing up, and never became part of my diet when I moved out on my own. I had come to appreciate a good salad, as long as it was with iceburg lettuce and lots of dressing. Broccoli was fine if it was cooked, with butter or cheese on top. Peas and green beans came from a can. And a mayonaisse-laden slaw with apples and carrots was the only way I'd been known to eat cabbage.
But now I faced this long-time fear. I found myself eating brussels sprouts, with nothing on them except a little salt and pepper. And to my surprise, they were amazingly quite tasty. Not enough to indulge for every meal, but pretty good as an occasional side.
The lesson learned today? Childhood fears can be overcome. Even a fear of the dreaded Brussels sprout. Maybe one day I'll have a face-off with olives, mushrooms, squash, and bleu cheese. But in the meantime, I say YUCK to them all!
Su
For as the soil makes the sprout come up and a garden causes seeds to grow, so the Sovereign LORD will make righteousness and praise spring up before all nations. Isaiah 61:11
Friday, March 25, 2011
It's Friday and my house smells like fish! But my kitty cat sure appreciates it.
For breakfast, the day opened with tuna salad -- a drained can of tuna, chopped peaches, celery, red onion, half an avocado, red wine vinegar, salt and pepper. The cat got the juice from the tuna.
Lunch was hot salmon salad. Canned salmon, red onion, celery, vinegar, salt and pepper were heated in a skillet with a touch of olive oil. At the last minute I tossed in a handful of snow peas for a sweet crunch. The cat got the juice from the salmon.
I was treated to a special dinner, made by a friend, in my own kitchen. She sprinkled salmon filets with lemon juice and topped them with red onion, salt and pepper, then baked them in aluminum foil pockets. I tossed together a lettuce and cabbage slaw with red onions, chopped peaches, chopped plum, apple cider vinegar, salt and pepper. We fashioned a quick peach salsa with avocado, red onion, cucumber, peaches, and a splash of lemon juice.
And I bravely opened myself to a new experience -- steamed brussels sprouts.
Brussels sprouts and many other green foods were not part of my diet growing up, and never became part of my diet when I moved out on my own. I had come to appreciate a good salad, as long as it was with iceburg lettuce and lots of dressing. Broccoli was fine if it was cooked, with butter or cheese on top. Peas and green beans came from a can. And a mayonaisse-laden slaw with apples and carrots was the only way I'd been known to eat cabbage.
But now I faced this long-time fear. I found myself eating brussels sprouts, with nothing on them except a little salt and pepper. And to my surprise, they were amazingly quite tasty. Not enough to indulge for every meal, but pretty good as an occasional side.
The lesson learned today? Childhood fears can be overcome. Even a fear of the dreaded Brussels sprout. Maybe one day I'll have a face-off with olives, mushrooms, squash, and bleu cheese. But in the meantime, I say YUCK to them all!
Su
For as the soil makes the sprout come up and a garden causes seeds to grow, so the Sovereign LORD will make righteousness and praise spring up before all nations. Isaiah 61:11
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