Remember what I've recently shared about emotions and stress? Well, this is a day that could have been a very emotional and stressful day. It's a day that has been such for the past few years, but this one passed calmly. It was my 25th wedding anniversary. The silver one. Or it would have been.
This third I will bring into the fire; I will refine them like silver and test them like gold. They will call on my name and I will answer them; I will say, 'They are my people,' and they will say, 'The LORD is our God.' " Zechariah 13:9
But that is the past, and this is the present, the life I am working to reclaim, regain, resurrect. I am claiming the scripture of refinement, not only because of the mention of silver -- as relating to my silver anniversary -- but to the promise of purification that comes from refinement.
All impurities will be burned away. Only the element itself shall remain in liquid form, to take the shape of whatever mold it is put into. That is how I am becoming the new me, through this refinement, this difficult challenge which follows difficult times.
I have walked through fire, I have found shelter in raging storms. I have spent time in the wasteland, and exiled from the life I once knew. I have neared the border to a new life, and am ready to be molded and shaped into a new creature, inside and out.
I am opening myself to this process, this refinement, this burning away of what doesn't belong in my life, in my lifestyle, in my body. I am opening myself to the new physical shape I will be given, that of the woman God created me to be, and burning away the bad choices, mistakes and ill health I have made through my life which led to the present form I find myself trapped within.
All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags; we all shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins sweep us away.No one calls on your name or strives to lay hold of you; for you have hidden your face from us and made us waste away because of our sins.Yet, O LORD, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand. Isaiah 64: 6-8
Consequently, this was also the 20th day of the 30-day cleansing diet. I am now officially 2/3 through it.
Today's menu: 3 slices crisp bacon and a fresh plum for breakfast. Leftover stir-fried beef, broccoli and cauliflower, with brussels sprouts, for lunch. A large "super salad" for dinner.
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